So yesterday when I really needed to feel Gods love and feel his presence for the calmness and peace, I walked into worship just hoping. I just closed my eyes, held my hand up and said here I am, I fully surrender myself to you Lord, in that moment I felt the overwhelming of his presence surround and comfort me, it was just me, the Victory Family Church worship team, and God. I begin to cry as I heard him whisper- my child this is meant to destroy you but I am your God and this will be for my Glory no matter what. Then it hits me God trust me because he knows I will turn to him. I will rise above this BECAUSE OF WHO MY GOD IS and HIS promises.

Word of advice- Don’t let PEOPLE or SITUATIONS destroy who you are especially when you have a God who will Always hold you up to Deliver you!!!!

I often wonder while listening to people talk and offers others advice…..how can you give someone advice if you’re not educated about it? If you don’t have children, but you have been State educated, you should give advice to your friend. If you don’t have children and hang out with nieces and nephews, you probably aren’t equipped to be asking, “why do it this way,  you should just spank them, my kids wouldn’t be like that, this is what I would do if my kids did that.” You’ve never been through it so you offer support and love. If you’ve been divorced once, offer sound advice on the positive that you wish you had done that may have saved your marriage (yes they’re those marriages nothing could be done) but don’t tell someone a bunch of negative advice and comments about how you don’t feel that’s right for their marriage. Read the bible, educate yourself on a healthy marriage, learn what marriage is about and understand what works in your marriage may not work in theirs. If you’ve never had an addiction, then you don’t understand how someone can’t just stop something. It’s became a habit. Offer love and suuport and an ear. Sometimes when people want someone to talk to, they just want to be heard. Not an opinion.

I want this to be more of an open discussion topic. Why do you think we accept this? What’s been your expierence with this or a family member that has became addicted? Anymore when you watch TV you see either a prescription commercial with horrifying ‘possible side effects’ or an Attorney suing a drug company for a disease or death you received while taking it. When is enough, enough? They are making millions in a vicious circle. You take one pill for one thing but then you end up taking more pills because of the side effects of that medication. Most pain pills are narcotics for a reason and it’s becoming such a problem. Most pills are just handed out and as much as the doctors are watched some are just as bad to give you a pill for everything. Now I’m not saying ALL doctors to this but it just takes a few and you have a really huge problem on your hands. I am one of the very few that put my body through so much to be so blessed to have the health I have.

Don’t hang your head low because you’re sad….look up because you’re looking toward your God! Keep your eyes locked on him, he has your answers. He created you on purpose for a purpose. Let him show you the way. When all you can see is darkness all around you, look up at his light. It’s shining down for you and on you. Your light isn’t burned out. Be the light in a dark world. Take  a stand and believe.

Fear

Does fear control you? Why when it comes to do something great with our lives fear stops us? Why don’t we feel like we deserve better? I started to realized a pattern….everytime oppurtunity knocks I talk myself out of it. But why? Usually even though rejection is number one soon to follow is insecurities and feelings of not being good enough always out way the 10,000 positives if it does work out. Fear is a feeling and feelings are temporary. Why base your decision off a temporary feeling when its going to leave you with regret? Fear will rob you of your future and make you question everything. Attempting something and it failing a time or two is apart of learning how to make it happen. Start believing in yourself. Start believing you can accomplish anything if you try hard and long enough!! Everyone started somewhere and it wasn’t at top. Everyone has paid a price to accomplish their dreams and to fulfill your dreams. We need to stop holding ourselves back.

Giving up isn’t an option

Suicide…. some people can’t even imagine what it’s like to debate and others can relate exactly what they’re thinking and going through. Why do some struggle with it and some couldn’t imagine ever thinking about it. Maybe if more would be open about their struggle instead of pretending their life is perfect then the numbers would be down. So with that being said… I struggle with thought of suicide. I have struggled since a teenager. I have struggled as a NON believer and a fully devoted believer. I can tell you 3 times in my life where I could picture exactly how to do it and it sounded better than living. The first was as a complete non-believer (I believed there was NO God), a drunk driver killed my sister and we were very close, my home life was a wreck, I had lost my grandpa who raised me 8 months prior, I had lost all hope and the pain seemed like it was going to be unbearable for the rest of my life. I became very depressed and thought about suicide almost everyday for 1 1/2 years. I was in counseling twice a week for about a year after. Because when we lost my grandpa I started taking my grandma to church, after 2 years I began to question if there really was a God. Mother Emily prayed a healing prayer over me and I began to uncontrollably cry and I couldn’t stop for about an hour. I felt like I had cried all that pain from my heart and I knew then there was a God. I would read random posts about God and random verses that were common and within 6 months I got pregnant with my daughter. It was impossible for me to have anymore children after my son and we had tried for 5 years and believed the doctors. We had separated for 6 months and then begin to hang out again and I found out. I literally became homeless, jobless, had a boyfriend, truck and 2 kids. Well I’ll just say it got a lot worse before it began to get better. I knew I had to keep this baby and it was a girl. Sure enough the day we found out it was a girl, I was in shock I couldn’t come up with a name. So one night I sat on the back porch and just began to talk to God and just knew there was. That night I named my daughter Faith Leeann, Faith is so I will never lose my faith in God. Leeann is my sisters middle name. Looking back God had been building my testimony. Becoming a devoted christian yes I still sometimes hit lows and question my purpose, question my strength in a struggle, but God has proven to me too many times in this life if I can just hold on he’ll fix it. If you have a breath you still have a purpose. My grandma served a purpose up to the time she took her last breath. She made sure it was everything she promised….peaceful. I’ve had good days and alot of bad ones too but I always know that if I give it to God to turn my mess into a message, my test into a testimony, it’s going to get better. And if you’re at the bottom the only way to start going is back up. There’s no amount of counseling that will fix it to where you never have another suicidal thought but there’s a God that is counting every tear trying to hold and comfort you. It’s the one “person” you’ll never be able to push away no matter how long or hard you try. Psalms 91:9-12= If you make the Lord your refuge, if you make the Most High your shelter, no evil will conquer you; no plague will come near your home. For he will order his angels to protect you wherever you go. They will hold you up with their hands so you won’t even hurt your foot on a stone. 14- The Lord says, “I will rescue those who love me. I will protect those who trust in my name. When they call on me, I will answer; I will be with them in trouble. I will rescue and honor them. I will reward them with a long life and give them my salvation.” Yes he talking to and about YOU!!!!!